It has been.... way too long. So I figured I should write something now, and here it goes.

School: It has obviously started, and we are currently in week 2. I love being able to tell people that I only have 4 days of school a week. I really need it too, considering how the other days I gotta get up at 7 to make it to school on time by 8, and the fact that I don't EVER get to nap anymore. Classes are okay. 228 - first class of the day with Dr. Noooooo - Tandon. Then 255 with Shaban, who is a very nice professor, however the workload is huge as I've found out tonight (good thing I started early, I'm a good boy). Then 306, which is hard to pay attention to because she is doing Materials/Chemistry so far, which sucks when it is supposed to be an EE course. Last but not least is Phil 230, which is really interesting actually and I'm ahead in the reading. It is interesting stuff. Only down side to the whole thing is that Prof Flores switched rooms!!! Now I have to walk alllll the way to the business building, and then back to McPhee's to work afterwards, instead of having every one of my labs AND lectures in building 20. Oh well, some exercise I suppose. Labs will suck, as always. I have Bryan as my lab partner again (Chemistry class all over again, except this time it's EE!) he's a cool dude, and the 306 lab teacher is from China, and I'm speaking to her in Chinese. Last is 255 lab, which I don't know how it will go, seeing as how I have 2 (count them, two) CE majors as my partners... hope they know what they're doing and that it will be easy and fast to get out of, but I highly doubt it. That is the conclusion of my school activities so far... oops, almost forgot. Textbooks - cost me close to $280 for 2 books, and I bought the EXACT SAME BOOKS, BRAND NEW AND SAME EDITION off of Ebay for roughly $150. I saved a ton!

Mom is in Taiwan, divorcing Dad and seeing Grandpa for what will most likely be the last time. He has lived a long and good life, and I thank him for giving me my Chinese birth name. The divorce I knew was coming, I just still can't believe that it is going to happen. I haven't heard from Mom yet, but I have been checking up on the brothers at home and they seem to be fine.

Work: I cannot ask for a better job as of right now. It is on campus, pay is not too bad, and as laid back as can be. Co-workers are all awesome - Ernest (he's there working way too much but is cool to hang out with and ask for help because I'm new), Elijah (I used to not like him but now that I work with him he's like a totally different person to me), Brent (asshole but at least I'm on his good side), Erica (I don't like her, she's got an attitude problem but I don't see her that much), Jeff (another new guy like me, he's pretty good and I've never worked WITH him so I don't know), Robert (teacher, funny dude), Greg (pin-tech master), Mike (haven't seen him much but he pin-techs anyways), Carissa (funny girl), and Jenn (manager). Overall they are all awesome. I bowl when there is no manager around, usually after like 4 or 5... and I have lockers to check out on my will. I'm getting the hang of pin-teching in the back and I'm bowling a whole hell of a lot. I keep breaking skin on my thumb though, and have to give it a couple days before I can bowl again... but this will just make it stronger. What a great job, and I'm getting plenty of hours right now, and they are good shifts too. Getting picked up is fairly easy, Joe or Andrew or Chris is nice enough to pick me up... I need to figure out the bus route soon, or Mike just needs to get his car soon for me to use.

House/Roommates: Great fun. Bunch of cool guys, Mike is easy to live with, and just friends all around. Drinking, and hanging out, watching TV, playing poker, etc. The keg-o-rator is working at full capacity, we have Coors Light in it right now... I usually don't like it but somehow it just seems to taste a bit more tolerable. I got my MGDs in the fridge, and Bicardo as well. They all seemed to take the dog situation much MUCH more easily than I expected, and very well. I was scared of some rash "No way" statements to come, but they kind of just accepted the fact that it was already DONE and I told them about it afterwards. Oh well, it is my decision, not theirs.

Gonna turn 21 soon. Like I said to Michelle today, it is something that I kind of look forward to but then again kind of not that big of a deal really. I don't care too much about turning 21 because of the fact that although it is the last age milestone that has "barriers being removed" such as drinking and buying alcohol, owning handguns, etc... not too much of a change of lifestyle as say... buying porn, voting, lottery, etc. However, it IS something I look forward to because of the fact that new life choices are going to be made. Examples: my new dog, my soon-to-be tattoo, parents seperating, etc. Those things are the things I look forward to, and say "I did that around the time I turned 21".

Looking forward to: my new buddy. He was born on 7-21, which makes him only about 10 weeks old exactly. He is such a cute puppy, although I'm not looking forward to house-training him and such. It will be a pain, but he will be my best friend for life (or at least for quite a while). What will be the name you ask? The name has already been decided: Apollo. How fun, when I go home for Christmas, Rocky will get to meet Apollo! That is so funny, even though I didn't name him for that reason. I named him Apollo because of Greek Methology again, and him having to do with the sun and such (like with me being "Helios"). Apollo, you and I will grow to love each other for the years to come.

I'm upset.

Hi. How are you doing? Me? Oh.... well, I'm just a little bit upset. It's a long story, but I'll be honest with you just because that's the way I am with certain things like this. I just, let them out. Anyways, you know how I feel about you since way back in winter/spring quarter. Since then I've been trying to figure out what exactly is going on between us and how I should be feeling. You and Manny sometimes just don't act like the typical couple at all... I don't know what you have to say about that. But anyways, I've tried to just consider you as a friend but it's hard, because I find myself attracted to you in several ways and not just physically. However there is just one thing about you that get on my nerves a lot... punctuality and not keeping promises. But back to the subject at hand... this whole summer I was just working and passing the time, and when it got close to us moving in and your birthday, I decided to do something nice for you, and this was the first time that I was really disappointed and a little hurt. I like sending people flowers a lot, and I usually get a phone call back within the day, so needless to say I was kind of expecting it from you the day of. But I didn't get it until the next day, but no big deal right? Then we've talked, and we talked about moving in early before school starts and hanging out and everything... so I started to really look forward to it. I recall hearing you say something about even helping me move in on my first day here and everything. So I get here, first day, and you didn't call. So I tried calling you maybe 4-5 times but didn't get through. But as we both know as I finally got a hold of you the day after, you were with your parents and you told me that you might come visit finally after you were done with them that night after dinner. You didn't, but you did call... of which you told me about the plans for the next few days. About how you had to unpack out of someone's room and get settled in, and I said okay. You said but probably the next 2 days after that. It is now the 3rd day after that, and I didn't get a call from you at all. How exactly am I supposed to take this whole thing? Should I just give up and not hope for anything?

I'm upset, I'm dissappointed, and hurt.

Well I've exhausted the whole list except for #7... of which was kind of to be expected anyways this first day.

Rewind back 24 hours...

I finished packing all my stuff and loading it up into the U-Haul, and then Mom and Will and I went to lunch. I bought something for Leo too, and then I got in the U-Haul and left. Almost sad, but not really. So fucking tired fo the yelling, the lack of freedom, the lack of EVERYthing. I couldn't handle it anymore. So anyways, I drove and drove, and arrived at CSUMB (California State University Monteray Bay) eventually. I was quite skeptical at parking the U-Haul and was afraid of stuff getting jacked... but nothing happened so I should deem myself lucky. We hung out for a while, and went to dinner at the OBC. Afterwards we went back to Aaron and Lisa's room where we played a little StepMania. After that we finally headed to "210" or AKA "The Quad" where we fucking got wasted. Oh, before we left we took some warm sake. That shit flowed through me like tea! It went down so easily, I loved it. At the Quad we met lots of cool people, and we played Kings. Aaron, Hailey, and Bryan all were beer bong virgins and took one that night, good job guys! By the time we decided to walk back to the room I was pretty fucked... still coherent, but fucked. Then we chilled there and talked for a bit while they smoked, and I did whatever a contact high I could get off of it. Then it was some nostalgic Dreamcast gaming of old school NES games until Lisa puked, Aaron cleaned it up, and we went to bed.

I got up, said good bye, and drove. Finally made it back to SLO. The house is great, I got the keys, and am now pretty much all settled in. My room is fairly filled, but I definetly need some sort of a book cabinet/shelf type of a deal, plus a chair. This damn folding chair is killing my ass. I also need the cables to connect the speakers to the TV. Oh and also a DVD rack type of a thing, plus maybe a coffee table and end tables. Bathroom wise I need a floor mat and a hanger thing to put shampoo and soap in. Kitchen wise I need a dish dryer type deal, and I need to jack bowls and pots and plates and silverware from upstairs. Last but not least we need a dining table, chairs, and a microwave. The internet is setup, haha I'm a genius. I can fix just about anything... the router took a bit but I eventually got it and needless to say I'm online now. The bandwidth so far is real good, pretty much the same as what I've been using this past summer at home with DSL. Oh yeah, I need some pillows for my bed... cause I took them home and forgot to bring them back!

I still haven't gotten to see anyone yet. Like I said Darra didn't answer... any of the 5 or 6 times that I've called her. Michelle's around, and Dan is around too I think. I need to call work, need to call the bank, etc. I need to put up my white board and also put up all the wall stuff probably tomorrow.

Oh yeah, and I need to buy a fish.

Well I ruined concerts for myself for the rest of my life.

Was what I said to Tony as we drove home. My ears are still ringing from the concert. My voice is almost back to normal, but my ears are still ringing, my feet sore, and my head still a little woozy.

We left at about 11:45 or so, and went and got food at Claim Jumpers... haha all we got were appetizers, but they were huge. We then went to the concert and parked in E13. I could've probably snuck a camera in there easily had I tried, but I didn't want to risk losing the camera and having to worry about it, so I made my mind not to bring it before we even left.

We got there at about 2:15 to 2:30 or so, and first walked around and found out where the entrances were. We then went and stood in line and bought our shirts ($28) and then went and got in line before getting in not soon after. Theatre was pretty big, but that was no problem seeing as how we were in Section 102, row U, seats 25 and 26. FUCK Y'ALL ON THE 200 SECTION AND ON THE LAWN!!!!! Our row happened to be the very last one in our section, right underneath the reserve boxes. It turned out really good, seeing as how we had to wait for so long after we sat down, it was hot, and the boxes behind us provided us SHADE! So many empty seats tonight until Snoop, Korn, and Linkin Park came on, even the boxes.

At about 4:15 to 4:30 Less Than Jake first came on... they were alright. Didn't know any of their songs but they DID shoot out t-shirts through a bazooka launcher type deal. Aside from that they were okay. Then after them it was a small intermission before The Used came on. They were a bit better and easier to rock to, but still I didn't know any of their songs so I couldn't sing or nothing. After that we went and got drinks, which took forever. By the time we got back Snoop had already started in his first song, but we got back to our seats and rocked out with him. Hahaha, he had a whole line of skanky bitches who were probably all under 25 years old. Snoop was dope, and here's a couple lines:

...smoke weed, get drunk, and fuck!

...nana na naaaa, nana na naaa, hey ayyyyy, Snoop Dogg!

Then there was a small intermission, and Korn came on. So cool, with the drummer going on first with a red glow under his drums, and then we rocked. I only remembered some songs from the first CD, maybe one song from the second, and didn't know a lot of the other stuff but it was still awesome stuff to rock to. After Korn was done we watched some breakdancers on the overhead projector for a bit.

Finally Linkin Park came on. Geezes, I fucking rocked and sang my lungs out. My throat is only still just recovering. They fucking rocked my glasses and hat off... literally. Well, I took the hat off because it was loose and making me hot, and the glasses I took off everytime I had to headbang and jump up like crazy. They were fucking so cool, haha one of the guys (the only one that I don't know) tripped on his way to hopping up the slanted slope, and Pheonix was there to kinda catch him (oh and by the way he had a fro going on). It was hardcore screaming and headbanging and everything Linkin Park was about for about 40 minutes straight and then they pretended they were done... even broke the guitar and stuff. People left... STUPIDASSES. Oh, I gotta beat traffic! DUMBASS. They weren't done! A few more songs, and ending with their headlined song from their first CD. By then the row in front of us had just about cleared out, and as Linkin Park retook the stage I got down to the row and used the space to throw my body and arms around as I rocked with Linkin park

...for the last performance of Project Revolution, for the last act of Project Revolution, for the last concert of Linkin Park until they come out with a new record, and for the first time I've seen Linkin Park in concert.

It just doesn't get any better than that. Great seats, great friend, great bands, awesome concert. What a day.

Haha, I'm happy and I can go killing now.

Were the words out of my mouth... or should I say out of my fingers that I typed as I played SoF2. I suppose good things do come when you're playing that game. Amy called first when I was playing that game. I'll probably get to see her Tuesday (I think it's Tuesday, or is it Monday? I'll call her on Monday) night and have dinner with her. That will definetly be something I'm gonna look forward to. I just can't wait to actually see her again....... it's been soo long, and I've missed her.

So she finally called today. I continued to play SoF2 and then I got the call. It was weird, she wasn't jumping for joy but she DID get them. I can imagine it in my head, from what she told me: she was in her pajamas, and she went to get the door, and her dogs ran up and she had to stop them. They are now sitting as the center piece on her kitchen table or something like that. How nice. I can't wait to see her either... I probably won't get to talk to her again until I actually drive down there and move in. That is okay, by the time I move down there I'll probably get to see her on the first day.

Still so confused. What do I do? When will be my time?

Oh well, no use in worrying about that for now. I shall just focus on the here and now, which is going to be in the following order:
1. Project Revolution Concert
2. Seeing Amy
3. Working the cash operation
4. Packing/Loading truck
5. Hanging out with Aaron and Bryan
6. Moving in
7. Seeing Darra
So yesh, she is on the bottom of the list. Had the list been extended, there might have been a: 0. Wait for thank-you call from Darra. But now that it has passed, we will focus on the following things. Tomorrow will be so awesome, I can't wait to rock out. I just gotta remember to be careful not to lose/break my glasses while i'm rocking out. Oh yeah Anthony bought me a birthday present, what a dude... he is my best friend. Anyways, focus on the here and now, and with that let us go to bed and bid this day a goodnight. A day in retrospect: cash operations a success, phone call for overdue meeting with the lifelong crush, past due thank you call from the girl of right now, and anticipation for tomorrow's concert.

...the here and now...

Well, I'm still waiting for it.

It hasn't come yet... and I'm referring to "the call" from a certain someone. Wonder where it is? I have my doubts, but... I mean c'mon. You'd think they'd be ecstatic (haha had to look it up in Word and I spelled it right) over getting something like that. Then again, I should say it's not the first time that she's surprised me about something similar to this... and by that I mean back in February during Valentine's Day, she didn't call me until much much later. Then again, that was due to her having to drive home, and as I found out later she actually saved it in her room! God she is hard to figure out. There simply HAS to be something that I don't know about. I suppose I will find out later tomorrow or something. But I mean, there WAS that one call that was "withheld" that I had missed at 6 o'clock.

Maybe it was her then.

But I'll never know will I? At least, I was doing something productive at that time... thanks for setting it up for me Sandy. Because of the damn wind today, I was in a jerk mood all day up to the point Sandy left the store and I took over. I made some mad bank, and the cash operation worked out beautifully. Thank you mister who bought the 1/2 gallon of black algaecide, 40 pound bucket of 3" tabs, and brush. 2 bills in my pocket, hahaha.

Will it happen? Will I get to see her again?

Amy... will I see her this summer before I leave? Who knows. Maybe, maybe not. I just want a nice dinner to just sit there, catch up with her, and stare at all her beauty. That's all I want for now, and to conclude it with a nice goodbye kiss. Sigh... well, I have about 5 days to do it.

The concert's in 2 days, boy that is going to be awesome. How am I going to get the camera in? And speaking of which, where the fuck has Tony been. Well, he's coming so that's the bottom line. Hopefully I can get my camera in to take pictures at my awesome seats. The shoe is my only option for now, who knows if I'll be able to do it. I also still want to go bowling... then again, if I don't get to do it by the time I leave, I'll just do it when I get back to school.

I don't know, she's just so confusing. After I get off the phone with her each time I feel good and that we're on the right track, but what track is that exactly? She said she'll call... well it's been 2 days so I don't know. And especially after "that"? I mean, c'mon... who wouldn't call? Maybe it didn't get there??? Maybe I got screwed out of it??? Maybe this and maybe that... I'll find out about it tomorrow I suppose.

And WTF is up with my paycheck? Somebody gone done fucked up, and I want an explanation.

Well I bought them today... the tickets to Project Revolution. Tickets cost $240.00... but they will be worth it. Sitting in the center section, near center seats. Tony will be going with me, and he said he would drive. I can't wait, I just need to get the tickets from the dude, I'll find out how I'll do that tomorrow.

I also reserved my U-Haul truck today. After tax, over $500 man, that is just some crazy shit. Well, I gotta rely on the cash operations I suppose... if only I can get enough to work that off, plus the rest to take care of my Linkin Park tickets I will be golden. Well, I have tomorrow, thursday, friday, saturday, monday, and tuesday to collect. That makes 6 days, hopefully pick up $600.00. If I can do that and finish it out, I'll be happy.

Also, I finished our deal with Charter today for the internet and TV. That should be pretty good. What else do I need to take care of for the house? I gotta lay down tonight and figure it out. What else what else???