I'm posting because I can I suppose... I'm just totally ready to go back to school. Go back to home, have to cook my own food, but that's not neccessarily a bad thing. Go back to homework, tests, school in general I guess. Roommates, going out sometimes on the weekends to parties, etc.

It'll be a little different I think, just simply because of the fact that I have to work. That factor alone will cut down on my freetime... but hopefully I will be able to combine that with schoolwork. I will do my best, and I'm making that vow right now. As hard as it may be to concentrate or even do any type of written work while working, I'm going to at least try to study and whatnot. I'll see how it works out, because there simply may be no way for me to concentrate... we all know how silent it takes before I get to do anything school related.

Every night now it is the same ordeal... screaming at us to go to bed. I dunno how much more of that I can take. Not much more, because I am almost done... the countdown is now 12 days. I still gotta find some time to stop by one of the U-Haul places to see if they can't bump my price down more. I should get that done soon, and also I have to get the internet/tv taken care of for the house.

Got the new credit card today. Now I can finally be satisfied and comfortable knowning that I have something that will cover me. The limit is $2500, as opposed to my measly $500 on the Travis one. We will see what my first purchase will be. I think all of my bigger purchases will go on that one, because then I can get money/cash back off that blue card.

I don't even know what else to write. All I know is that I hope I don't get caught... I need to be REALLY REALLY careful, because if I get caught, things will be totally fucked up for me as I try to make my way back to school. Well, just a couple more days of the cash operation, and hopefully I can unload this stupid Viper. After that, I think I will be done. I will basically need to pay off Mom for the cell phone, of which the total I almost have. Then with the Viper I will be able to take that money and transfer into my account, whereas the money from the Polaris will be kept strictly for the Rangers server and my own personal stuff. That will leave maybe about $100 for DVDs and other Ebay stuff. Lets see... then if I can just get a couple hundred dollars in cash operations to help lessen the damage on that stupid U-Haul move, I think I will be cool. Plese just let all this go through smoothly... if I get busted, I dunno what I'll do, probably go to jail and not be there when school starts... and everything in my life will be fucked up. My god that will be fucked up for me. I don't even know what to do, morale wise it is totally wrong, but I need the money to pay for that stupid shit (u-haul move) and my phone. Between the two, that is like one whole paycheck. I don't even know what to do.

Here's my theory...

I was sitting there getting my ears lowered when I finally realized and came up with my theory regarding the sleepiness of getting a haircut. In the past (beginnings of my theory) I had thought that I was prone to me falling asleep because of the vibrations in the hair clippers that was used on me... kind of like the way you fall asleep on a car. But, no. It was simply because of the fact that as I sat there with my glasses off, I had the feeling that it was time to sleep. The only times that I ever take my glasses off is when I'm taking a shower, swimming, or sleeping. Showering, wakes me up. Swimming, I am moving around and usually playing so I am wide awake. Thus the only other time that I have my glasses off is when I'm sleeping... thus the induced feeling of sleep when I am getting my haircut. What a weird theory, but I am positive it is right. That solves that mystery... moving on to something bigger like the mysteries of the universe.

I met Jerry Seinfeld!

I met Jerry Seinfeld in my dream last night (or was it this morning?). It was weird, the setting was once again in the old Trinity dorms on the 3rd floor. I had some weird poster of him hung up on my wall, of which I ripped down for him to sign. However, for some reason or another the colors on the poster/picture was fading real bad, and I felt bad that I didn't have anything else for him to sign right then except for that. He signed it, we spoke for a while I think, and that is pretty much all that I could remember from the dream. I can't remember what we talked about, but I did kind of remember him performing somewhere, and I was sitting near the front rows but very much off to the left hand side of the stage. That is all I can remember, I really wish to meet him someday.

Kara should eat more Wendy's 99 cent nuggets. I have no idea why but we were talking about it earlier today and I just have that stuck in my mind so I figured I get it out here. There was a lady with Kara's birthday at work today, but obviously a different year.

I should start posting much more as school is getting closer and closer, and me moving out is also getting closer and closer. I need to get out of here. Like I said to Jaime the other day:

VV sucks
work sucks
mom telling me to eat 3 square meals a day and go to bed early sucks
no parties or girls sucks

Lots of sucks, but it's all true. I need to go back. I need to start making that "list" of stuff I need to have as I travel down there. I also need to make sure that the U-Haul is not a stick shift. I also need to get my SS card taken care of while I still have a vehicle available to me here in town. I also need to get that list of stuff that we had before in Cerro Vista made up and talk about to the guys (vacuum cleaner, house neccessities such as trash bags etc, TV/Internet pricing about two lines or one). Wow I have a lot of "need to do" things. I should get started on some of them soon. It is already the 20th of August. Let's see... when is going to be my 2 week's notice... 24th? 24 + 7 = 31 + 7 = Labor Day. Yup, 24th is when I gotta give my 2 week's. Looking forward to that too... my paycheck this time was small. Next one will hopefully make up for it.

Well it sure has been a while.


I don't even know where to start... I guess today would be a good place maybe. Got up, went to work... same thing as always. Sandy finally got a car... I suppose that's the only new thing. Took care of a lot of special orders today and even some shop work (although some were a pain in the ass)... and if I remember correctly there shouldn't be any customers pissed off at me for any particular reason or another. Came home, ate dinner, watched TV with brothers, fell asleep for 15 minutes... woke up and played games, then I'm here.


Time to rewind back maybe... a couple weeks or so...


Well, Beth was here and then wasn't. Confusing, yes I know. Well, she showed up right about the time Bryan and I went to The Crystal Method and Paul Oakenfold concert. Saw her the day afterwards, and then expected her to have gone to Oregon to visit her aunt/uncle. As I found out about a few days ago, she didn't go. Weird, I was calling her cell to figure out when she was gonna be back, but she never picked up her phone, so thus I thought she had actually gone. Turns out she was here in Vacaville the whole time, hanging out with... Rick maybe? Her and Diana were still on the bad side and JUST getting over it on this last Tuesday. Anyways, Tuesday we went bowling... we = Diana, Beth, and Me. Then afterwards we just drove around for a while, while the two girls were chatting along (yeah I felt REAL included... I wanted to get away almost) and then they started calling up people to go out to dinner. William calls, saves me, says Mom is mad I wasn't gonna make it home for dinner. So I say I gotta go, but I'll catch up with them later. So they drop me off, and I remembered I gotta figure out my school schedule shit (look a couple paragraphs down for full story on that). She calls me back and to make a long story short, she was mad I ditched her on the last day to figure out my school shit, I suppose she didn't believe me. Honestly, I didn't want to be there too much, because I had wanted it to be just her and I saying goodbye and such for the last time in who knows how long, but all her other friends were gonna be there, I didn't know them, and I really did have to be home to figure out my school shit. I'm sorry, I really am... I didn't even get to say bye this time... I'm quite sad. (sighhhhh)


Um... what is next. Spending money. Money money money stuff... I have to talk to Mom tomorrow morning regarding money I'll be spending this next year. Recent purchases:

1. Sony Ericsson T637 Cell Phone

2. New bowling ball and bag

3. New bowling shoes

Great phone, I love it. Still waiting for the link that I ordered off of Ebay to connect it to the computer so I can upload pictures and games and ringtones and stuff. Bowling ball is awesome, I bowled a 190 one time with it (bowling 5 games so far with it) and I've been pretty darn accurate. It is a 13 pound ball, feels really good and not heavy at all (I used to use a 12 all the time) and I'm waiting for my shoes.

So... school stuff. Registration was this last Wednesday... I knew that. But me, being the fucking dumbass that I am, forgot to pay the damn tuition ahead of time. Boy was I screwed. It was Tuesday, and I home preparing to set up my schedule to register the next morning at 7:00 AM when I realized I hadn't paid. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I hop online and pay via eCheck right away, but had no faith in the system processing it by the next morning. I was screwed, I can't register using my priority (which was the following day) and if I didn't find a way to register I wouldn't be able to register for another 2 WEEKS!!!!! I got ready to prepare to drive down to Cal Poly the next day (8 hour round trip) to personally hand the administration cashier a check, so I can hop online and register that afternoon. But then I talked to Huy... he said the eCheck was instant. I finally make it through the night, and in the morning at 7:01 AM I realized the check wasn't processed. FUCKKKKKKKKK. But let's wait until 8 so I can call the cashier's office. 8:01 AM I try to register again, and it said I was through!!!!!!!! I could register!!!!!!!! It was a miracle, and I figured out that basically my eCheck was processed at 8 in the morning. Wow. I am never fucking going through that again. My life would have been hell right as school started, with a totally FUCKED up schedule and having to crash courses, and probably would have been placed on Academic Probation for not having the right classes. I can breath now..........

Darra called. She called me I believe Monday night. I thought she had fallen off the face of Earth. As it turns out, she was just busy... and she finally got online a few days back to check her e-mail and get ready for registration herself. She finally read my e-mail, and decided to return my call. So I spoke with her for a little bit that night, I think like 20 minutes. She was going to take tech writing, of which I still had to take, so I think this is going to be a great way to have another class with her. But as it finally turned out, with my whole registration ordeal, I couldn't have gotten that class with her anyways, but settled for a MUCH MUCH MUCH better schedule... with all of my right classes, good teachers, ALL IN THE SAME BUILDING (there is no one here on Earth that can be taking 16 units, and get their classes all in the same damn building... and we are talking 6 separate lectures and labs!!!! ) and I don't have class on Tuesdays! On Monday and Wednesday I'm done by 2! On Friday I'm done at 12!!!!!!! What a perfect schedule. As far as Darra goes, oh well. I don't even know what's going on. I have no love life anymore. I quit.

I QUIT

More than one person/girl have told me to stop looking. They say that it is when you stop looking for that person do you finally find her. I've been looking for way too long now, I am tired, I am hurt, I (almost) don't care, I quit. Let them come to me... hahaha, like that would ever happen. There is absolutely no way I am going to meet anyone... I only have chaces in my philosphy class this upcoming school year, and maybe while I'm working the desk at the Bowling Alley. I'll stop looking now, so as to speed up that process of somehow stumbling upon her.

What else, what else, what else. Oh, Aaron was here for a while. Saturday he came up with Lisa because them two, Bryan, and Haley are all going to Disney World in Florida. Sounds like fun. Aaron, Lisa, and I (and the brothers and friends) all hung out Saturday night at the bowling alley and went and got ice cream. Sunday, was my day off, and so we all went to the mall to do some shopping (at least Lisa did) and Aaron and I decided to try this Oxygen Bar thingy... yeah, I have to admit it, I got high off of oxygen. It was actually kind of cool... very interesting process and experience. I miss that guy... I'm gonna visit them on my way down to moving into my house. I'll stop off and see him and Lisa for a day or so, and then drive that U-Haul down and move in.

I have no idea what AJ is doing. He's going back soon, and I say him a grand total of (drum roll here.............) TWO TIMES. Fucking christ... I suppose he has better things to do and more friends to see than I. Then again, I can't blame him too much, for I'm working almost all the time and how is he supposed to know when I'm available. I haven't called him too much, and he hasn't called me, so we're even. Geezes... everyone is leaving before I even get to say Hi or Bye to them. I suck. I can't believe how bad of a friend I am. I didn't get to drink with neither AJ nor Beth. Sigh....... then again I never really did have the right place to drink, and getting Mike to buy for me is almost out of the way. And also with work the next day or having to come home or getting home all faded and stuff etc etc. There really isn't a way for me to do any of that kind of activity.

I'm done. I think I'm out of things to say. Mom just came out and said "I thought I told you all to be in bed by 1." I gave her a dirty look, and said "It's not 1 yet." So she left and slammed the door. What the fuck. I need to move out again. Geezes. Can't do what I want, when I want, or how I want. Living at home sucks so much. Fuck this, I got another month left and I'm out of here. I'm so frustrated with work... so frustrated with home... so frustrated with girls... so frustrated...WITH LIFE. I'm done.