Eureka!

I think I've figured it out! It came to me as I was scooping out dog food for Apollo about 5 minutes ago, I guess I just thought about it enough and it clicked. So exactly did I figure out? I've figured out the follow predicament:

Why I have been single for so long? Let's see if I can't put what clicked in my head down into words. I'm pretty sure the whole root of the problem is a combination of two different aspects of my mentality towards dating... correction, not dating, but the whole process of getting a girlfriend. Lets start with the first "problem" and defective portion of my mentality that probably set me back so far that I was never able to get myself back in the game.

What is that defectiveness or bad judgement you ask? I set my goals WAY too high. Sure, any stereotypical guy probably has the innate sense of wanting to out-do his fellow man (competition) by obtaining the trophy wife/girlfriend/mate. That thought/instinct coupled with my oddly peculiar taste of nothing short of a very pretty face, skinny body brunette deemed acceptable took me out of the game probably all throughout high school and the first couple years of college. Yes we all want our "dream girl" and we see a couple of those cuties here and there, but the guys who have girlfriends at this very moment probably at one time realized and said to himself "hey, that's not gonna happen to/for me!" and moved on. I didn't come to that conclusion until only a few years ago... much to my dissappointment as the dream faded away. But we can all still dream right?

Okay, so I've gotten past problem #1 and I've realized that I kind of need to set the bar a whole notch lower and accept all those girls out there that are probably just as beautiful on the inside while still fairly pretty on the outside. The reason behind lowering the bar? Haha, the problem's been with yourself the whole time... ME! Not so much a problem as the ignorance of realizing that while as great as I may be (from what many others have told me), I'm not up to their level and don't exactly have that initial *sparkle* in my eyes to catch their attention or any specialty (i.e. being a celebrity, having a ton of cash, being a superstar athelete, etc.) to GET any of those girls.

Once again, we take a step back and go "okay, okay, okay.... I'm not that great and don't posess the characteristics to be able to snag that girl of my dreams (at least not without anything less than a miracle)." Now what? problem #2! It is too late and I've missed the boat! All others, the ones that I could've had a chance had I been barking up that tree from day #1 have been scooped up. I came to this realization around the 2nd or 3rd year of college, at which point I started "waiting out" a couple of those girls - and to this date, all to no avail.

So what do I do now? Let's take a look: I've realized what I have to offer, realized what I am capable of picking up, so where/how do I go about doing that? This is what I pose as problem #3. Sitting on the brink of graduation within this last schoolyear, I'm soon to be shipped off to the real world within the work industry. This further removes me from the prime place of obtaining a female companion that is college, of which I've wasted all 5 years. Where do I go, what do I do, how do I do it, and when do I find out if I've done it??? This problem #3 seems to be what I'm about to face (pretty soon) but for now I'm stagnant. I'm stuck, and I can't seem to do too much except wait it out and take this waiting period as a sort of punishment for being so naive in the past...

... how did I become so naive? I've missed the boat, and now I'm slowing drowning.