Well it sure has been a while.


I don't even know where to start... I guess today would be a good place maybe. Got up, went to work... same thing as always. Sandy finally got a car... I suppose that's the only new thing. Took care of a lot of special orders today and even some shop work (although some were a pain in the ass)... and if I remember correctly there shouldn't be any customers pissed off at me for any particular reason or another. Came home, ate dinner, watched TV with brothers, fell asleep for 15 minutes... woke up and played games, then I'm here.


Time to rewind back maybe... a couple weeks or so...


Well, Beth was here and then wasn't. Confusing, yes I know. Well, she showed up right about the time Bryan and I went to The Crystal Method and Paul Oakenfold concert. Saw her the day afterwards, and then expected her to have gone to Oregon to visit her aunt/uncle. As I found out about a few days ago, she didn't go. Weird, I was calling her cell to figure out when she was gonna be back, but she never picked up her phone, so thus I thought she had actually gone. Turns out she was here in Vacaville the whole time, hanging out with... Rick maybe? Her and Diana were still on the bad side and JUST getting over it on this last Tuesday. Anyways, Tuesday we went bowling... we = Diana, Beth, and Me. Then afterwards we just drove around for a while, while the two girls were chatting along (yeah I felt REAL included... I wanted to get away almost) and then they started calling up people to go out to dinner. William calls, saves me, says Mom is mad I wasn't gonna make it home for dinner. So I say I gotta go, but I'll catch up with them later. So they drop me off, and I remembered I gotta figure out my school schedule shit (look a couple paragraphs down for full story on that). She calls me back and to make a long story short, she was mad I ditched her on the last day to figure out my school shit, I suppose she didn't believe me. Honestly, I didn't want to be there too much, because I had wanted it to be just her and I saying goodbye and such for the last time in who knows how long, but all her other friends were gonna be there, I didn't know them, and I really did have to be home to figure out my school shit. I'm sorry, I really am... I didn't even get to say bye this time... I'm quite sad. (sighhhhh)


Um... what is next. Spending money. Money money money stuff... I have to talk to Mom tomorrow morning regarding money I'll be spending this next year. Recent purchases:

1. Sony Ericsson T637 Cell Phone

2. New bowling ball and bag

3. New bowling shoes

Great phone, I love it. Still waiting for the link that I ordered off of Ebay to connect it to the computer so I can upload pictures and games and ringtones and stuff. Bowling ball is awesome, I bowled a 190 one time with it (bowling 5 games so far with it) and I've been pretty darn accurate. It is a 13 pound ball, feels really good and not heavy at all (I used to use a 12 all the time) and I'm waiting for my shoes.

So... school stuff. Registration was this last Wednesday... I knew that. But me, being the fucking dumbass that I am, forgot to pay the damn tuition ahead of time. Boy was I screwed. It was Tuesday, and I home preparing to set up my schedule to register the next morning at 7:00 AM when I realized I hadn't paid. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I hop online and pay via eCheck right away, but had no faith in the system processing it by the next morning. I was screwed, I can't register using my priority (which was the following day) and if I didn't find a way to register I wouldn't be able to register for another 2 WEEKS!!!!! I got ready to prepare to drive down to Cal Poly the next day (8 hour round trip) to personally hand the administration cashier a check, so I can hop online and register that afternoon. But then I talked to Huy... he said the eCheck was instant. I finally make it through the night, and in the morning at 7:01 AM I realized the check wasn't processed. FUCKKKKKKKKK. But let's wait until 8 so I can call the cashier's office. 8:01 AM I try to register again, and it said I was through!!!!!!!! I could register!!!!!!!! It was a miracle, and I figured out that basically my eCheck was processed at 8 in the morning. Wow. I am never fucking going through that again. My life would have been hell right as school started, with a totally FUCKED up schedule and having to crash courses, and probably would have been placed on Academic Probation for not having the right classes. I can breath now..........

Darra called. She called me I believe Monday night. I thought she had fallen off the face of Earth. As it turns out, she was just busy... and she finally got online a few days back to check her e-mail and get ready for registration herself. She finally read my e-mail, and decided to return my call. So I spoke with her for a little bit that night, I think like 20 minutes. She was going to take tech writing, of which I still had to take, so I think this is going to be a great way to have another class with her. But as it finally turned out, with my whole registration ordeal, I couldn't have gotten that class with her anyways, but settled for a MUCH MUCH MUCH better schedule... with all of my right classes, good teachers, ALL IN THE SAME BUILDING (there is no one here on Earth that can be taking 16 units, and get their classes all in the same damn building... and we are talking 6 separate lectures and labs!!!! ) and I don't have class on Tuesdays! On Monday and Wednesday I'm done by 2! On Friday I'm done at 12!!!!!!! What a perfect schedule. As far as Darra goes, oh well. I don't even know what's going on. I have no love life anymore. I quit.

I QUIT

More than one person/girl have told me to stop looking. They say that it is when you stop looking for that person do you finally find her. I've been looking for way too long now, I am tired, I am hurt, I (almost) don't care, I quit. Let them come to me... hahaha, like that would ever happen. There is absolutely no way I am going to meet anyone... I only have chaces in my philosphy class this upcoming school year, and maybe while I'm working the desk at the Bowling Alley. I'll stop looking now, so as to speed up that process of somehow stumbling upon her.

What else, what else, what else. Oh, Aaron was here for a while. Saturday he came up with Lisa because them two, Bryan, and Haley are all going to Disney World in Florida. Sounds like fun. Aaron, Lisa, and I (and the brothers and friends) all hung out Saturday night at the bowling alley and went and got ice cream. Sunday, was my day off, and so we all went to the mall to do some shopping (at least Lisa did) and Aaron and I decided to try this Oxygen Bar thingy... yeah, I have to admit it, I got high off of oxygen. It was actually kind of cool... very interesting process and experience. I miss that guy... I'm gonna visit them on my way down to moving into my house. I'll stop off and see him and Lisa for a day or so, and then drive that U-Haul down and move in.

I have no idea what AJ is doing. He's going back soon, and I say him a grand total of (drum roll here.............) TWO TIMES. Fucking christ... I suppose he has better things to do and more friends to see than I. Then again, I can't blame him too much, for I'm working almost all the time and how is he supposed to know when I'm available. I haven't called him too much, and he hasn't called me, so we're even. Geezes... everyone is leaving before I even get to say Hi or Bye to them. I suck. I can't believe how bad of a friend I am. I didn't get to drink with neither AJ nor Beth. Sigh....... then again I never really did have the right place to drink, and getting Mike to buy for me is almost out of the way. And also with work the next day or having to come home or getting home all faded and stuff etc etc. There really isn't a way for me to do any of that kind of activity.

I'm done. I think I'm out of things to say. Mom just came out and said "I thought I told you all to be in bed by 1." I gave her a dirty look, and said "It's not 1 yet." So she left and slammed the door. What the fuck. I need to move out again. Geezes. Can't do what I want, when I want, or how I want. Living at home sucks so much. Fuck this, I got another month left and I'm out of here. I'm so frustrated with work... so frustrated with home... so frustrated with girls... so frustrated...WITH LIFE. I'm done.